I haven’t written in some time now. It’s as if my thoughts have been dormant for a while and then out of no where my mind was filled with thoughts, words that needed to flow on the pages. I thought about all of the times I was inspired to write and it reminded me that my inspiration came from fear. Fear as a result of hurt, abandonment, abuse, misuse and then I remembered in that moment that this is no longer my story. Now I am free. Free from the hurt and wounds of my past and yet I still have a story to tell. I now know that I don’t have to wait to cry out and tell my story as a result of pain. I can tell my story to help someone else avoid pain.
When I was a small child I never felt good enough. I didn’t feel worthy. I felt as if I was not what I was suppose to be. I struggled internally to figure out who I was. I hid behind hard work and now I no longer hide. I’m free to share when I’m hurt and move on when I no longer want to be mistreated. My life is amazing! I’m amazing! I love life and I love others. I give of myself and I want nothing more than to share the gifts that God has given me with others. I learned the power of forgiveness and I’m willing to be forgiven. I no longer need the approval of others to validate me. I’m validated already. I won’t let others misuse, abuse or disregard me to make them feel better about them self. I have fear and insecurity, but my strength to persevere far outweighs my fear.
Today I salute those of you who are willing to stand up and decide to take your life back. Who in spite of your fear you will push forward in courage! Stay strong, trust yourself and tomorrow you will soar!